Secrets

Maybe this is just a secret space that I remember every once in a while, where i post things i can't tell even tumblr or strangers on the internet directly. Well i told my mom that me and my girlfriend occasionally strangle each other. She didn't like that very much but it is what it is. I still work at the Y. I like it a lot, still. Which is good. I'll work there for a while and i'm getting good at marketing things there. So far I reenrolled in school but now must figure out if i am going to stay enrolled for this semester or try for next semester instead because the lady doesn't know if my class will be offered in the spring, until October. I'm tired and I have life plans and just want to be done with this class. I just disappeared to write the professor on the'can i take a senior project instead cuz for real i can't gt in your class for shit, lady' tip. Anyway I've taken a break from my girlfriend for a bit. I told her not to talk to me for a few days or maybe until July. She's doing pretty well with it. I just dno't feel like dealing with her right now. I'll deal with her later, when she's more of a partner and less 'something to be dealt with'.

Secret Agent Heart

Lawdhammercy I got like, one month and one-half of one month to figure out what i'm gonna do and this decision will quite possibly change my entire LIFE, mane. MAH LIFE!! A nigga is frantic and useless over here and my hair is a mess and there are fruitflies in my bathroom - yes, bathroom, not kitchen - that REFUSE to go away even after ages of scouring which is pissin me off. Anyway that's so far left of the topic. I'm applying for some gov'mint jobs but there are so many regulations and things to read and stuff and I'M SO CONFUSED! And I have like, no experience and I don't know what to name my resume, or even put on it. Barmahwghlargh. 12/9/09

now i'm going to go back and post all of my old drafts. LOL

-looks at previous posts-

Yeah so none of that has happened. If I mentioned finishing a degree, never did it. Other jobs came and went, moved back in with Dad, who bought a house so at least I haev a room now. But I did get hired at the YMCA at the beginning of the year, and that's really cool, so I'm staying mostly with my ladyfriend. Maybe we can discuss that part later. I get nervous. But I really like the Y. I'm working with my best friend and I love everyone I work with to almost a familial degree. To the point where, yes, you can have half my cough drops. Sure, I'll run to the store and grab you a water and you some funyuns since I have to come back by here anyway because I love you guys. I haven't written in this thing in a year and I don't even know where to begin but what I do know is that I'm having a really good morning so I do not want to delve too far into the unhappiness in my brain this early in the day. There are many questions I don't know how to form maybe because I see some parts of what would constitute the question but the rest hasn't happened yet to finish it. Questions that need to be asked before they can be finished.

Dead blog it's been a while since i've been to this one and Crystobel sent me the link tombout 'you remember this?' so I thought i'd come back and update it. anyway, not much since last year. dropped that girl, met a new one, she's a turd but we're still dealin with each other but idk for how much longer, lost job, lost other job, got new job, quit it, got new job, hated it, got fired, got new job, moved in with Chay joined some facebook group that warranted a few snide remarks from the girl, whatever. now I wanna nap. might have a friend over.

Look at me

out having a life an' shit. It ain't much, and I had to chill out for a while. Folks all wantin' to be my friend an' shit. Nice folks. Open folks. People I'm hoping will be of more benefit to me. My friend wants to go to the beach sunday. I wouldn't mind going, but she wants to make it a massive affair. Houston Splash was last week but I think she's trying to recreate it or something..whatever. I don't hang out with her much because it seems like she's always scheming or trying to be seen. She knows where a bunch of cool shit is, but sometimes I just wanna hang out and not always be trying to come up with a plan for the next big thing or working for a come up.
I'm about to apply for a job I'm not qualified for. Wutev. And work is eh, and all the managers are gonna be there today and i have to be there 3 hours early, which sucks but will help make up for the week I'm missing next week for my trip.

Some things.

I wish the Oblongs had more episodes.

Someone said I should try making a logo for them. I'm gonna.

I have an interview at a car dealership tomorrow. I'll go, expecting commission only but will be pleasantly surprised if they start you off on a small salary until you get your feet wet. I can do it for that. Just because it's a recession doesn't mean niggas ain't still buying cars.

Work Suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucks.
I mean, it ain't terrible. But. I'd rather not. So. Eh.