Secret Agent Heart

Lawdhammercy I got like, one month and one-half of one month to figure out what i'm gonna do and this decision will quite possibly change my entire LIFE, mane. MAH LIFE!! A nigga is frantic and useless over here and my hair is a mess and there are fruitflies in my bathroom - yes, bathroom, not kitchen - that REFUSE to go away even after ages of scouring which is pissin me off. Anyway that's so far left of the topic. I'm applying for some gov'mint jobs but there are so many regulations and things to read and stuff and I'M SO CONFUSED! And I have like, no experience and I don't know what to name my resume, or even put on it. Barmahwghlargh. 12/9/09

now i'm going to go back and post all of my old drafts. LOL

-looks at previous posts-

Yeah so none of that has happened. If I mentioned finishing a degree, never did it. Other jobs came and went, moved back in with Dad, who bought a house so at least I haev a room now. But I did get hired at the YMCA at the beginning of the year, and that's really cool, so I'm staying mostly with my ladyfriend. Maybe we can discuss that part later. I get nervous. But I really like the Y. I'm working with my best friend and I love everyone I work with to almost a familial degree. To the point where, yes, you can have half my cough drops. Sure, I'll run to the store and grab you a water and you some funyuns since I have to come back by here anyway because I love you guys. I haven't written in this thing in a year and I don't even know where to begin but what I do know is that I'm having a really good morning so I do not want to delve too far into the unhappiness in my brain this early in the day. There are many questions I don't know how to form maybe because I see some parts of what would constitute the question but the rest hasn't happened yet to finish it. Questions that need to be asked before they can be finished.